Taking stock
And so, as my journey began to unfold, I took stock.
Yes, of course there was fear, but I tried my hardest to resource myself by spending time in nature and meditating. I was also gifted some Spiritual Healing by a beautiful soul, Julie Anne Hart.
I gently tried to listen to what my body was calling me to do. This is something that we all have the ability to do, but in our fast-track world, we have either forgotten how, or we choose to ignore or override our “primal” inner, innate guidance and wisdom.
One of the things that I just knew I needed to do was to retreat from all of the noise. I gave myself space to process my emotions and reflect on what was happening. At this time, I was fortunate enough to have been gifted a place on one of the incredible Weleda Retreats, as a thank you for working with them for 10 years.
The timing of this was perfect… this gave me a weekend of solace in the beautiful Derbyshire countryside. A weekend where I could be nurtured and cared for and where I could just be…
I knew too that I need to become stronger and healthier, as deep down I felt that this would help me prepare for my operation, and it would also aid my recovery.
I contacted a dear friend; Jo Briddon, and without sharing with her my “why”, I asked if I could arrange to have 1:1 Pilates sessions with her. I also contacted another dear friend, Jenny Briddon, and asked if we could arrange some 1:1 PT sessions.
During this time, I also went to see a lovely lady in Ashbourne, who I knew had experience of my situation. I felt a bit nervous walking in to speak with her, but when I shared my story, she was amazing! And she helped me come to my decision, that if I needed a mastectomy, I did not want reconstruction, and I did not want to be lop sided, and so I began to mentally prepare myself for asking for a double mastectomy. Forever grateful Louise Rose, (Lou Lou’s of Ashbourne).
On the 10th July I had an MRI Scan…a scan which would enable my consultant to have a clearer picture on how best to proceed from here.
On the 13th July, I had my next appointment with the consultant.
I felt nervous, but prepared…
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